August 11, 2364

Blue won't admit anything, but his antenna betray a lot. It's clear the topic is one he's been thinking on a lot lately. He did admit that when Travis was shopping for the ring, and trying to figure out when to propose, he had been asking Blue's advice a lot.

We talked a little about the girlie man comment, and Blue admitted it didn't bother him. He knows Travis means nothing by it, and it seems to be a common enough misconception that any of his people who spend much time off-world soon become desensitized to it if they let themselves adapt. That said, not many actually let themselves adapt and most don't stay off the home world for very long outside of Starfleet these days.

Blue asked me about the things Travis had said to his mother regarding children though. When Cindy had asked about grandchildren, particularly male grandchildren, Travis had admitted we hadn't talked about it, but had assured her it would likely happen, eventually. He had said we'd have to talk about it first, and it likely would involve leaving our current jobs to settle down somewhere a little more child friendly.

At first, I'd assumed he was concerned with the idea that Travis and I might desert him in the name of settling down and producing offspring... but the more we talked, the more I knew he was already certain we'd never leave him behind unless he wished it. He actually seemed most concerned about the choice to have children. I am not sure where he got this impression, but somehow he thought I wasn't inclined to have children. It is possible that he misunderstood my complaining about my Mother's incessant reminders about how much of a pain in the ass it was to bring me and my brothers into the universe, and assumed that this meant I wasn't inclined to go through the same to produce children of my own. I think that Mother's bitching on the topic has lead to my having a more practical view of the topic, and also means that when Travis and I decide to move forward on the subject, it will save us some time on the research of how to get started.

I did ask Blue if he felt that he'd even be inclined to have children, if he found the right people to bond with. There was some hesitation, and very clearly some reserve, before he answered. He told me he was unsure if he could picture himself as a thavan, but he also hadn't spent much time thinking about it. He said it was something he intended to ponder, as the right bond could make the question one worth considering.

When I told him that I knew he'd be a good thavan, if he decided that's what he wanted, there was a smile and a happy curve to his antennae.