March 19, 2364

Travis convinced me we should go to Risa for our anniversary. While the stupidity, about sex, of the people visiting the place is quite annoying, the locals are awesome and the place is pretty. We've had sex in some very very pretty places, and we've found other things to do that doesn't involve sex. Sometimes just sitting on a beach, watching the moons rise is enough.

This year, Jarzen failed to make an appearance. I was relieved when I realized this. I don't even know if Travis thought about it, but if he did, he didn't feel the need to mention anything to me.

We did have an interesting conversation, while sitting out and star gazing tonight. Looking up at the sky, he asked me if it made me feel small. When I told him that all I've ever been was small and alone, that the sky wasn't needed to remind me, he was surprised. He even went so far as to object that I have lots of people in my life. We quibbled back and forth about how many people I have in my life, and I still insisted that I was pretty much alone, and that it was better that way. Less to lose, fewer distractions from thinking and learning.

When he asked me why I was so pessimistic, I in turn asked why he was so optimistic. He said it was because he had me, even as he teased, with his finger nails, at that place on my hip he so loves to bite. I admitted I didn't think I'd ever understand him, but that was okay, I was glad to have him. Then we had some more awesome sex.