July 13, 2363

While Blue opened up to Travis, I'm still not sure that he's back to normal. Travis says that he's just being melancholy because he doesn't like being an outcast. I can understand this, even though he's a private person, he is very much a social creature. Being reminded by everyone around you that you don't fit in, it gets weary. I've been dealing with it my whole life, and honestly, between Blue and Travis, for the first time in my life, I have found somewhere I don't feel like I'm the odd person out. It's refreshing, and I've found myself the happiest I've ever been.

I pointed this out to Blue, in hopes of making him feel better, to remind him we're here for him, but he didn't seem to take it the way I meant it. He got quiet, and excused himself. When I asked Travis if he had any ideas what I did wrong, he was as mystified as I was.

I am going to go insane soon if I don't get to either go out and start a fight in a bar, or spar again. Sex with Travis, it's awesome, but it's just not the same as getting in a right proper fight. I suppose if I lob enough insults at him, he'll rise to the challenge. Might be fun to see what happens if he actually gets pissed, instead of just playing with me.